7.26.2009

"...boy what's up?..."

currently listening to:
soulja boy :: turn my swag on

^ makes me sooo hype! i think it's really sad that in our society if a guy isn't humping everything in sight people automatically assume he is gay. so...i guess in my case...that would make me a lezzy? i hate half hugs, but i sometimes give them to people. it freaks me out when people wear socks with sandals. maybe it's because i was forced to when i was child.


2 reasons that reminded me why i don't watch the news: michael jackson and chris brown. so tired of hearing about it. kthanks. freakin' LOVE this: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fXKH5zgG8PA

7.21.2009

"...and i wish i could tell you face to face...cause i was so nervous...but carried on regardless..."

currently listening to:
kate nash :: we get on

^ her album is on repeat today.

so i did it. i broke THE rule. my mother has always insisted that boys chase you. i respect this advice and really do believe in it. but. sometimes rules need to be broken. and. i am so glad that i did. because...now...i know. no more wondering. and that relief of finally knowing is better than abiding by the rules. i really do try my best to be an open and honest person so when someone reciprocates that i really appreciate it. i really do. sometimes raw honesty (regardless of what the truth holds) is what is needed. so thank you.

7.20.2009

"...i want to get on with getting on with things...

...i want to run in fields...paint the kitchen...and love someone..."

currently listening to:
imogen heap :: first train home

it's moments like right now when i miss my little harry the most. i wish he were here laying beside me on his side of the bed. (the right side)
you are the most confusing person i think that i have ever met. i cannot read you for the life of me. your actions (or lack thereof) and words can be interpreted to go either way. i wish you would just tell me. i don't know that i've ever possessed this much patience before. i wish that i wasn't so traditional...just this once. i wish that i could just tell you. so that way i could get a reaction and move on one way or another. because it's just exhausting constantly wondering. you just make me absolutely crazy.


7.12.2009

"...i mean it...every word of it..."

recently played:

this century :: to love and back
neil young :: harvest moon
empire of the sun :: walking on a dream
tool :: parabola
the blow :: true affection
the strokes :: someday
a perfect circle :: weak and powerless



my current stats teacher reminds me of doogie howser. but. in a not nearly as cute kind of way. it drives me insane when people say "heighth" instead of "height". it's lengTH and heighT. "heighth" is not a word. look it up. you won't find it. so it really is true that you don't genuinely appreciate certain aspects of life until they are taken away/(for whatever reason) you aren't able to experience them. when the only warm body laying next to you at night is a white, fluffy, 4-legged one you really start to miss the human touch. and while i love my little harry winston to death and there is nothing like an all-engulfing hug from your bff...there is just something to be said of snuggling with the opposite sex. i love it. it'd been so long that i had forgotten how good it really felt. and maybe that's why i've been single for so long. i really took stuff like that for granted when i had it. i am so much more appreciative of the little things and that rare moment when you encounter a good guy.

7.06.2009

"...what's the point of holding on..."

currently listening to :
death cab :: your new twin sized bed

i am absolutely heartbroken. i have to send my sweet little harry monster home. i know it'll be okay, but he's just my little baby. on a happier note... i love laying next to my bff and having pillow talk consist of her wedding plans. i love saks. for several reasons really.
1) it reminds me of my love, nyc.
2) just about any designer denim that you could want at your fingertips
3) their playlist consists of postal service. and lots of it.
i'm trying my best to be practical...but...it's just so not as cool. i want so badly to be in nyc for grad school, but it just doesn't make much sense when there's an $18K diff PER semester. bah. so...practicality wins. lame. it's looking like i'll be staying in the south for another year. maybe birmingham or atlanta? i'm just tired of living in a small, college town. "love ya" grosses me out to the core. seriously? just don't. that's how i signed my yearbook in 5th grade. if you can't spell it out i-l-o-v-e-y-o-u don't bother. otherwise it's lame and insincere. kthanks.
current crave :: a 16 oz freezing cold, draft beer accompanied by a stadium dog and baked, sweet potato fries

7.01.2009

"...it took me a really long time to get here, but i'm here..."

currently watching:
sex and the city :: season 6 part two :: an american girl in paris [part deux]

it will all be over with tomorrow at 4:30. thank goodness. i am sooo over school today. i am so ready to be done with it all really. i'm not quite ready to be out in the real world just yet, but i am more than ready to be done with all the sleepless nights from late night studying. most especially when you feel like it was a complete waste of time. one final down. one to go. nothing makes a bad day better than spending an hour at the gym letting go of frustrations, sex and the city, diet mountain dew, pot roast [even if it does come prepared in a plastic, microwaveable dish], and a comfy bed. i have got to quit window shopping. but i can't help it...

[snake long dress by t-bags]
i love it.