"...just do it for yourself..."

currently listening to:

drake (featuring t.i. & swizz beatz) :: fancy

self-sufficiency is insanely sexy. 7 am run and a cup of hot, english breakfast tea afterward...gloriousssssss!! i hate that all of my people are long distance...luckily i have absolutely NO problem with road trips. love's gas stations are my fave. driving over the tennessee river on 65N is magnificent at sunset. i believe in i can't believe it's not butter spray. i l-o-v-e being from the south, and how "roll tide" and "war eagle" are standard salutations here. i was recently asked by one of my guy friends what some of my turnoffs were when it comes to guys' apparel. a few of MY personal dislikes are:

jerseys.
[you can rep your team in a tee just the same.]
tank tops.
[it DOES NOT matter how ripped you are. under no circumstance am i fan.]
jewelry.
[with the exception of watches and wedding bands.]
ed hardy.
[in ANY form.]
clarks' wallabees.
[those were exciting in 7th grade.]
ANYTHING redneck-esque.
[if you have to think about this it probably qualifies. MINUS cowboy boots. if it's the right boot...on the right person...it can be quite nice.]


hey pretty. i can't wait for you to get here to me:

"...i won't regret 'cause you can grow flowers from where dirt used to be..."

my life's quote:

"life is too short to wake up in the morning with regrets,
so love the people who treat you right,
forget about the ones who don't,
and believe that everything happens for a reason.
if you get a chance, take it.
if it changes your life, let it."

"...life's a beach...

i’m just playin’ in the sand..."

currently listening to:
lil wayne :: right above it

weezy just ALWAYS does it for me! everytime. i'm so in love with life's unexpected surprises. it's SO true that when one door closes another one opens. the good that came out of the bad situation was revealed to me this weekend. i had THE BEST halloween/weekend in new orleans. the ONLY thing that could've made it better would've been if we could've gone to the saints game. i'm officially in love with that city. i could never live there, but i adored my visit. if i had still been in a relay i know that i wouldn't have gone and i would've TRULY missed out...on an amazing trip with amazing people. i really should be very thankful for being broken up with. being out of the situation now i can see where it wasn't truly for me. it's just always harder to see when you're IN it. that's life though...it just makes the idea of the end result that much more exciting. i deserve someone that KNOWS what they have because i know my self-worth. that's not a cocky statement, but it's true. i know what i have to offer someone.

why my mother is A-M-A-Z-I-N-G:

I want the happiness of my children more than anything. I would like you to finish your B.S., marry the man of your dreams, and have your three-four beautiful children. I still believe in happily ever after. Life is never seamless - without problems - BUT you can live it with someone you love madly who loves you just as madly. I want you to achieve all your dreams - I really do - I just hope they don't take you too far away from me. I love you unconditionally and forever.

mama

i want this one day:

"...it's what you do and say that makes you who you are..."

currently listening to:

natasha bedingfield :: strip me


the perfect way to start my week off (even though i think of sunday as the last day of the week): blueberry pancakes, new postsecrets, & church. it really is amazing to me how God delivers a message that is perfect for you at that moment in your life, and it's something that you really needed to hear. a couple of things that really spoke to me today: "just because everything looks great in your life doesn't mean that you're in the will of God." "we serve a Lord of second chances."
i always try my very best to find the good in any bad situation. i've really struggled lately trying to find the good and i still can't seem to see what that is, but i know that one day it will be revealed to me. i love how true such a simple phrase like, "it'll be okay." can be. it is though. it ALWAYS is or will be. in the moment it's just hard to believe it. what doesn't kill you makes you stronger, and my new thing is putting any frustration into working out and running and pushing myself to the limit. it's so freeing. i cannot believe that i'm actually going to be something attractive this year for halloween. i am officially all about the spray tan...now that i've figured out how to keep my hands from looking like i've been playing in mud. so what if it's jersey shore-esque. at least i won't look like a dried up prune later in life. i prefer my oatmeal to be pourage-style vs thick. i seriously DO NOT understand people that don't smile. it's SO terribly unattractive and just lame.

makes me happy:

yoplail's light lemon meringue yogurt.

the office.

flannel pajamas.
i really want these:
[i'm not delusional enough to think that i could make flannel look sexy like that...haha]

"...this is how we live, every single night..."

currently listening to:
far east movement :: like a g6

the one and ONLY perk to a breakup: absolutely NO appetite. :)

things that have made me happy lately:

running.
[at sunset when it's breezy]
lil wayne.
[blaring through my headphones]
my friends.
[they never cease to amaze me with how wonderful they are]
fall weather.
[and the clothes that go along with this season]

hello lovers...
i'm lusting over you all...

"...beat goes on..."

currently listening to:
m.i.a :: come around

this is so true and comforting:

"When God takes something from your grasp, He's not punishing you but merely opening your hands to receive something better."

i'm tired of letting my guard down enough to give it my all to end up being hurt
but...
i know it's part of the process.
and i really believe you have to do that to have no regrets.
i'd rather be hurt knowing that i gave it my all than wish i had opened up more and have regrets.

"...we won't stop until it's over..."

recently played:

temper trap :: sweet disposition
sia :: i'm in here
mumford & sons :: white blank page

"...even if it feels like the shock is coming over and over again...eventually the pain will go away. the shock will wear off, and you start to heal yourself from something that you never saw coming..."

sometimes God takes good things away. it's always been hard for me to understood why, but i know that He does it for a reason. it's all a part of His plan, and that's something that is bigger than me...bigger than my comprehension. the saying, "if it's meant to be it will be. if it's not...it won't." is so cliché, but i've always believed in it and still do. i try my very best to live my life with no regrets, and to not hold back. i can honestly say that i'm very pleased with this approach that i take. it's really the only way to live life (i think anyway).
and i still appreciate honesty...
raw honesty...
even when it hurts.
i forgot how good it feels to just release my thoughts and feelings on here. :)