"...well, the look on the cake...it ain't always the taste..."

recently played:

corrine bailey rae :: are you here
sara bareilles :: breathe again
the weeks :: buttons
the black keys :: next girl

oh. how am i doing? extremely well! i am SO happy. and thankful. because now i know that it wasn't for me and that that are better matches. but the thing is...you don't get to ask. so just don't.


i am also thankful for...

God's grace and healing hand.
my God given family.
my chosen family.
"harry" winston.
second chances.
the good found in bad situations.
being born and raised in the south.
music.

hot, peppermint tea is like christmas in a cup! L-O-V-E! it's officially my second favorite time of the year!! eeekkksss!! i adore when someone knows me/my taste well enough to suggest new music and they're right. dear jenna crew, i adore everything about your holiday catalog, but why must you be so proud of it all?

"...i can tell there's something..."

currently listening to:

peter bjorn and john :: young folks

smit·ten

/ˈsmɪtn/ Show Spelled[smit-n]

–adjective

1. struck, as with a hard blow.

2. grievously or disastrously stricken or afflicted.

3. very much in love.

i don't know why, but i just really like that ^ word. i am SO ridiculously ecstatic about the next few upcoming weekends!! i agree that a TRUE fan of hp or twilight would attend the midnight showing of the movies, BUT i will say that it's pointless unless you have AT LEAST one avid fan to attend with you. the same goes for movies like SATC...unless you can indulge in sushi and cocktails with your gfs beforehand or afterward...what's the point? i'd rather wait...it's just part of the whole experience...in my opinion anyway. fun, little facts are my fave: red wine is the latest addition to the list of aphrodisiacs. this has absolutely no relevance to my life at the moment, but one day it'll be nice to know. i understand retail world putting out christmas decor the moment halloween is over, but it drives me crazy to see people already decorating their homes for christmas when thanksgiving hasn’t even taken place yet. it’s just another example of how fast paced our society is, and I am not a fan. no one ever takes time to just enjoy anything. i'm so embarrassed for people who put TMI about their personal lives in their statuses. if they only knew.... which...i guess people could say the same thing about blogs, but whatevs...it's different haha :) oh and as far as statuses go...i am ABSOLUTELY nauseated about everyone's thoughts/opinions on cam newton. he's a beastttttt. end of discussion. kthanks. i adore SEC football, but i have never understood why people can't just be a fan of their team(s), and just cheer for them instead of feeling the need to bash others also. dumbbbbbb.

"...just do it for yourself..."

currently listening to:

drake (featuring t.i. & swizz beatz) :: fancy

self-sufficiency is insanely sexy. 7 am run and a cup of hot, english breakfast tea afterward...gloriousssssss!! i hate that all of my people are long distance...luckily i have absolutely NO problem with road trips. love's gas stations are my fave. driving over the tennessee river on 65N is magnificent at sunset. i believe in i can't believe it's not butter spray. i l-o-v-e being from the south, and how "roll tide" and "war eagle" are standard salutations here. i was recently asked by one of my guy friends what some of my turnoffs were when it comes to guys' apparel. a few of MY personal dislikes are:

jerseys.
[you can rep your team in a tee just the same.]
tank tops.
[it DOES NOT matter how ripped you are. under no circumstance am i fan.]
jewelry.
[with the exception of watches and wedding bands.]
ed hardy.
[in ANY form.]
clarks' wallabees.
[those were exciting in 7th grade.]
ANYTHING redneck-esque.
[if you have to think about this it probably qualifies. MINUS cowboy boots. if it's the right boot...on the right person...it can be quite nice.]


hey pretty. i can't wait for you to get here to me:

"...i won't regret 'cause you can grow flowers from where dirt used to be..."

my life's quote:

"life is too short to wake up in the morning with regrets,
so love the people who treat you right,
forget about the ones who don't,
and believe that everything happens for a reason.
if you get a chance, take it.
if it changes your life, let it."

"...life's a beach...

i’m just playin’ in the sand..."

currently listening to:
lil wayne :: right above it

weezy just ALWAYS does it for me! everytime. i'm so in love with life's unexpected surprises. it's SO true that when one door closes another one opens. the good that came out of the bad situation was revealed to me this weekend. i had THE BEST halloween/weekend in new orleans. the ONLY thing that could've made it better would've been if we could've gone to the saints game. i'm officially in love with that city. i could never live there, but i adored my visit. if i had still been in a relay i know that i wouldn't have gone and i would've TRULY missed out...on an amazing trip with amazing people. i really should be very thankful for being broken up with. being out of the situation now i can see where it wasn't truly for me. it's just always harder to see when you're IN it. that's life though...it just makes the idea of the end result that much more exciting. i deserve someone that KNOWS what they have because i know my self-worth. that's not a cocky statement, but it's true. i know what i have to offer someone.

why my mother is A-M-A-Z-I-N-G:

I want the happiness of my children more than anything. I would like you to finish your B.S., marry the man of your dreams, and have your three-four beautiful children. I still believe in happily ever after. Life is never seamless - without problems - BUT you can live it with someone you love madly who loves you just as madly. I want you to achieve all your dreams - I really do - I just hope they don't take you too far away from me. I love you unconditionally and forever.

mama

i want this one day:

"...it's what you do and say that makes you who you are..."

currently listening to:

natasha bedingfield :: strip me


the perfect way to start my week off (even though i think of sunday as the last day of the week): blueberry pancakes, new postsecrets, & church. it really is amazing to me how God delivers a message that is perfect for you at that moment in your life, and it's something that you really needed to hear. a couple of things that really spoke to me today: "just because everything looks great in your life doesn't mean that you're in the will of God." "we serve a Lord of second chances."
i always try my very best to find the good in any bad situation. i've really struggled lately trying to find the good and i still can't seem to see what that is, but i know that one day it will be revealed to me. i love how true such a simple phrase like, "it'll be okay." can be. it is though. it ALWAYS is or will be. in the moment it's just hard to believe it. what doesn't kill you makes you stronger, and my new thing is putting any frustration into working out and running and pushing myself to the limit. it's so freeing. i cannot believe that i'm actually going to be something attractive this year for halloween. i am officially all about the spray tan...now that i've figured out how to keep my hands from looking like i've been playing in mud. so what if it's jersey shore-esque. at least i won't look like a dried up prune later in life. i prefer my oatmeal to be pourage-style vs thick. i seriously DO NOT understand people that don't smile. it's SO terribly unattractive and just lame.

makes me happy:

yoplail's light lemon meringue yogurt.

the office.

flannel pajamas.
i really want these:
[i'm not delusional enough to think that i could make flannel look sexy like that...haha]

"...this is how we live, every single night..."

currently listening to:
far east movement :: like a g6

the one and ONLY perk to a breakup: absolutely NO appetite. :)

things that have made me happy lately:

running.
[at sunset when it's breezy]
lil wayne.
[blaring through my headphones]
my friends.
[they never cease to amaze me with how wonderful they are]
fall weather.
[and the clothes that go along with this season]

hello lovers...
i'm lusting over you all...