"...i won't let you close enough to hurt me..."

currently listening to:

adele :: 21
[^ released today. amaze.]

"you should be kissed, and often. and by someone who knows how."
-- rhett butler [gone with the wind]

i am an affectionate person. always have been. always will be. not receiving that is a deal-breaker.
i have decided that i am just not cut out for dating. end of story.
i am so apathetic to it all...
that's why i'm just "going along" with whoever/whatever comes my way...
don't get too invested and you won't get hurt.
in the words of one of my best guy friends,
"just put on a sexy dress and let them take you out. just enjoy it and have fun!"
i want to be pursued.
hard core.
the questioning and wondering is exhausting....
and personally...
i don't think that you should be questioning OR wondering about anything....
it should just be obvious.
this commersh makes me happy:

i don't deal well with sketchiness. in ANY form.
i wish that men were similar to pre-approved credit cards. that you could just bypass the application (interview/dating) process of finding out if you're approved (compatible with that person). find out if you are and THEN get to know them. i know...it's backwards and ridiculous, but it would make things much easier.
this little boy can do no wrong in my eyes:
little snuggle bug...

"...tomorrow's coming and yesterday's gone..."

currently listening to:
amos lee :: flower

complete and utter adoration:

• 1000 awesome things blog
  [^ seriously. amaze. be about it...]

• the combination of bananas & extra crunchy peanut butter.

• being the little spoon. underneath a big pile of blankets. in a freezing cold room.

• sitting outside on a GORGE day catching up with friends over frozen yogurt.

• these dresses:

"...don't need another one when we got one another..."

current repeat:

lil wayne :: popular


i'm so happy that michael & holly are back together!!
and just in time for valentine's day. :)

and


i still adore this video...
so much.

"...all that we are after is a little bit of fun..."

recently played:

akon :: sexy bitch
sia :: bring night
edward maya :: stereo love

for valentine's day i...

am self-indulgent, and buy myself something fancy or simply treat myself.
[this year: i'm going to get myself a mani + pedi and MAYBE these beauties also:wear ALL black.
watch a girly movie or movies.
eat lots of sweets [in any form really...]
[this year: in lieu of chocolate/cookies/ice cream i will have a protein bar
OR
MAYBE a single. for real. ONLY 1 (110 calories) serving of these LEGIT blessings that my bestie introduced me to:
but.
if i wasn't TRYING to get sjp's/jenn anniston's hot bod for swimsuit season...
i'd be spending quality time with these HEAVENLY friends of mine:just to list a few...

i think that it's so important to encourage your significant other to do and be their best. one area i feel that is often overlooked is fitness (after i list my top big girl faves haha). it's so easy to get "comfortable" and just sort of let yourself go. while i do think that if you truly love someone you should love them regardless if they put on a few, but at the same time why wouldn't you want to be your best self for the one you care about/love? wait. no. even MORE importantly...why wouldn't you want to be your best for you? anywayyy...i just think that it's sexy when couples work out/exercise in general together which is also why i just LOVED this link:

MORE LOVE. LESS HANDLES.


i'm excited about the goodies that i'm sending to my valentines this year. :)

X's & O's cheesecake cookies

and

chocolate sugar cookies.

terms of endearment that i'm not a fan of so much:
sweetie. dear. babe. hun.

i just love this commercial! i'll probably end up resorting to this website one day so i should probably bookmark it...

"...live in the moment..."

currently watching:
SATC :: season 1 :: the turtle & the hare


i adore...

this SWEET, leetle boy:
long iDates with my bestie best:

mila kunis' dress for the 2011 SAG awards:

my mother and her sweet words:

"life is just better when you're around."

"...i got the kool-aid..."

currently listening to:
sleigh bells :: kids

i want...
to go bowling.
to be on a blanket having a picnic in the park.
a margarita. or two...
to be laying in a hammock with my best friend.
to jump out of an airplane again.
to be madly in love.
a large bowl of ben & jerry's.
to be riding in the front seat of a roller coaster.
to see brad paisley live on february 11th.
this romper:

and these shoes:

"...home is whenever i'm with you..."

recently played:

edward sharpe & the magnetic zeros :: home
[^ makes me so insanely hype]
[i've also always felt that home isn't a just a physical place. sometimes home is being with certain people.]
adele :: someone like you
leighton meester :: a little bit stronger
leighton meester :: words i couldn't say
carolina liar :: show me what i'm looking for

train :: marry me

2010 had some A-M-A-Z-I-N-G moments/memories and some really awful ones. i guess that's life though...you've gotta take the good with the bad. i will say that by the end of it i'm kind of glad to see it go. i'm really intrigued to see what this new year has to offer.

one thing that i'm going to do this year is to make more time for my people. all of my relationships are long distance. they're seriously all over the place now, but that's no excuse to not make time for them. i've always felt that if you truly care about someone that you will make it work.
this quote [from brothers & sisters] explains exactly what i mean:

"i feel like i don't have time for anything, but i think i need to reconsider that. there are only so many hours in a day. yeah. but it's how you arrange them. and it's what you do with them...and i really want to make this work."

say what you mean, and mean what you say. for some reason this seems to be such a difficult concept for several people in my life. it's beyond frustrating. i've never dealt well with empty promises or with people saying things just because they feel that that's what i want to hear. it's very unnecessary. just save your breath. seriously. i am also SOOO insanely frustrated by people putting words in my mouth or being overbearing/so opinionated that they don't stop to just listen what's actually being said.

i was recently browsing in B&N. love. and came across this little gem:

a few little tidbits that i read that made me smile and giggle:

"if a (sane) guy really likes you, there ain't nothing that's going to get in his way, and if he's not sane, why would you want him?"

"here's something else to think about. calling when you say you're going to is the very first brick in the house you are building of love and trust. if he can't lay this one stupid brick down, you ain't never gonna have a house, baby. and it's cold outside." -- haha LOVE it!

"when a guy is into you, he lets you know it. he calls, he shows up, he wants to meet your friends, he can't keep his eyes or hands off of you, and when it's time to have sex, he's more than overjoyed to oblige."

"if i were into you, you would be the bright spot in my horribly busy day. which would be a day that i would never be too busy to call you."


new obsession: skype dates. i've always had my iDates via iChat. i love chelsea. mainly for her inappropriateness. example:
"the way a true lady takes care of business is by throwing a couple of quarters in a maytag and straddling the spin cycle." -- chelsea handler
country strong. SO good! to me anyway. leighton meester, girlfranddddd...never would've guessed that she had that voice. all about it and the soundtrack.

"don't be afraid to fall in love.
ever.
it's the only thing that matters.
and fall in love with as many things as possible."
[gwenny. country strong]