"...it's what you do and say that makes you who you are..."

currently listening to:

natasha bedingfield :: strip me


the perfect way to start my week off (even though i think of sunday as the last day of the week): blueberry pancakes, new postsecrets, & church. it really is amazing to me how God delivers a message that is perfect for you at that moment in your life, and it's something that you really needed to hear. a couple of things that really spoke to me today: "just because everything looks great in your life doesn't mean that you're in the will of God." "we serve a Lord of second chances."
i always try my very best to find the good in any bad situation. i've really struggled lately trying to find the good and i still can't seem to see what that is, but i know that one day it will be revealed to me. i love how true such a simple phrase like, "it'll be okay." can be. it is though. it ALWAYS is or will be. in the moment it's just hard to believe it. what doesn't kill you makes you stronger, and my new thing is putting any frustration into working out and running and pushing myself to the limit. it's so freeing. i cannot believe that i'm actually going to be something attractive this year for halloween. i am officially all about the spray tan...now that i've figured out how to keep my hands from looking like i've been playing in mud. so what if it's jersey shore-esque. at least i won't look like a dried up prune later in life. i prefer my oatmeal to be pourage-style vs thick. i seriously DO NOT understand people that don't smile. it's SO terribly unattractive and just lame.

makes me happy:

yoplail's light lemon meringue yogurt.

the office.

flannel pajamas.
i really want these:
[i'm not delusional enough to think that i could make flannel look sexy like that...haha]

"...this is how we live, every single night..."

currently listening to:
far east movement :: like a g6

the one and ONLY perk to a breakup: absolutely NO appetite. :)

things that have made me happy lately:

running.
[at sunset when it's breezy]
lil wayne.
[blaring through my headphones]
my friends.
[they never cease to amaze me with how wonderful they are]
fall weather.
[and the clothes that go along with this season]

hello lovers...
i'm lusting over you all...

"...beat goes on..."

currently listening to:
m.i.a :: come around

this is so true and comforting:

"When God takes something from your grasp, He's not punishing you but merely opening your hands to receive something better."

i'm tired of letting my guard down enough to give it my all to end up being hurt
but...
i know it's part of the process.
and i really believe you have to do that to have no regrets.
i'd rather be hurt knowing that i gave it my all than wish i had opened up more and have regrets.

"...we won't stop until it's over..."

recently played:

temper trap :: sweet disposition
sia :: i'm in here
mumford & sons :: white blank page

"...even if it feels like the shock is coming over and over again...eventually the pain will go away. the shock will wear off, and you start to heal yourself from something that you never saw coming..."

sometimes God takes good things away. it's always been hard for me to understood why, but i know that He does it for a reason. it's all a part of His plan, and that's something that is bigger than me...bigger than my comprehension. the saying, "if it's meant to be it will be. if it's not...it won't." is so cliché, but i've always believed in it and still do. i try my very best to live my life with no regrets, and to not hold back. i can honestly say that i'm very pleased with this approach that i take. it's really the only way to live life (i think anyway).
and i still appreciate honesty...
raw honesty...
even when it hurts.
i forgot how good it feels to just release my thoughts and feelings on here. :)