12.12.2010

"...lots of mistletoe..."

currently listening to:
stevie wonder :: what christmas means to me


freshly baked sugar cookies + red wine + my bff + love actually + home-made christmas card craft time...does it get any better? i think notttttt

the holidays have been the perfect excuse to test my domestic skills. i really enjoy cooking/baking. especially while blaring music. and i also REALLY enjoy sampling the finished product or even if isn't finished i just enjoy the sampling part. gah. i'm such a fatty when it comes to sweets. i have a problem. i know this... i've been looking for scrumptious, festive recipes and these are the two that i've decided on for christmas desserts:


peanut butter reindeer cookies.
[recipe]

anything that contains peanut butter AND chocolate makes me giddy.


red velvet soufflés with whipped sour cream.
[recipe]


and
this one just looks
a-m-a-z-i-n-gggggg:

reece's peanut butter cup & chocolate cheesecake bars
[recipe]




current obsessions:




hello 2011:



12.07.2010

"...and when it's time, you'll know..."

current repeats:

akon :: angel
rihanna (featuring drake) :: what's my name?
katy perry :: firework
ke$ha :: we r who we r
alicia keys & adam levine :: wild horses (live)

weezy f. baby is my #1. drake, my #2. for sure. and. total girl crushes on rihanna & kp. i absolutely LOVED that the final song to play at the VS fashion show was muse. love. love. loved.
"if you never ask for what you want you'll never know if the answer is gonna be yes or no. you gotta take the risk."
i FIRMLY believe in taking risks. it doesn't always end how you would prefer it to, but i never regret KNOWING. whatever happened to the kind, go-with-the-flow, non-selfish, drama-free, NORMAL people? i suppose that i have already met all the ones that are left...

12.01.2010

"...wrap me in a great big bow and tear me apart..."

currently listening to:
colbie caillat :: mistletoe


i was recently asked by my bestie to make a list. a list that is entitled caity's list of faves. anything and everything. so...my list...i'm sure there are more but...[in no particular order]

my God.

my chosen family.
[my people. my 2nd family that i've picked up along the way]

my God given family.

music.
[ALL of it. EVERY genre.]
football season.
[everything about it. the energy. the weather. SEC football in particular.]
christmastime.
[it's always just been so magical and romantic to me.]
london.
sushi.
red wine.
[ANY kind of red wine]
NYC.
filet mignon.
[rare-medium rare]
roller coasters.

salads.

"harry" winston.
shoes.
[especially if they have a heel of 5"]
southern food.

ben & jerry's strawberry cheesecake ice cream.
candy.

recycling.

boiled peanuts.
amazing, quality makeout seshes.

[that include pulling on my bottom lip with teeth, being pinned up against a wall, or having my arms pinned back behind me]

plaid.

the way your cheeks feel after getting in a vehicle that's been sitting out in the sun.

postsecret.
apple inc. products.

ferris wheels.

kettle corn popcorn.

when my people are happy.

push up bras.

v-strings.

pandora.

seafood.

fireworks.

lower case.

[another reason why i’m a fan of e.e. cummings :)]

decorating/interior design.
black & lacy underwear/bras.
over-sized watches.

adrenaline rushes.

how beautiful eyes look at sunset.

5 o'clock shadows on men.
20% tips.
louis vuitton.
MMS.
dairy queen's ice cream cake.
diet mountain dew.

diet root beer.
technology.

independence.

skydiving.

[coolest thing i've done to date.]

hot, women's business attire.

bundled up from head to toe reading a good book by a fire with a cup of apple cider/hot chocolate.

doing something for someone else.

the names: eva, stella, kennedy, & jeremiah alexander for my future children.

chelsea handler.

the smell of: burnt matches, gasoline, fresh laundry, puppy breath, new leather, christmas trees, & fires.
hot tea.

abstract art.

a made bed with freshly washed linens.
linen pants.
summertime.
sun-kissed skin.

small acts of kindness.
bubble baths.

sunsets on the beach.

chanel.

the flat, morning tummy.
reading.

giving to those less fortunate.

the giddiness you feel when you like someone.
love.

christmas music.

slumber parties.

getting mail [minus bills].

the color green...particularly the shade chartreuse.
british accents.
Godly, sweet men that are: tall, have straight teeth, know how to dress, intelligent, ambitious, and that believe in chivalry & fidelity.
mimosas.
bloody marys.
dirty martinis.
margaritas.
blueberry pancakes.

banana pancakes.
taking a nap on a rainy day.
holding hands.

brunch.
great danes.

snuggling.

ham, mushroom, & onion pizza.
concerts.
designer denim.
sex and the city.
friends.

the office.
love actually.
harry potter.
twilight.
edward cullen.
rob pattinson.
robert downey jr.
a man in a suit.

ruffles.

lil wayne.

crossing everything off of my to do list.

massages.

.07 g2 pens.

school supplies.

post-it notes.

a man playing with/holding a child.
vintage/vintage inspired.

owls.
photo booths.

unexpected surprises.

boyfriend cardigans.

scarves.

jigsaw puzzles.
spontaneity.

long, lean muscles.

argyle socks.

white chocolate macadamia nut cookies.

smiles.
gameday.
the internet.
positive people.
getting to know new people.
road trips.
board games.
twister.
traveling in general.
the way your tummy drops on a roller coaster.
mix cds.
sparklers.
forehead kisses.
long, deep conversations.
texting.
peonies.
peacocks.
mr. clean magic erasers.
chapstick.
boll weevil soap company products.
st. george island.
mod podge.
hugs that engulf you.
silly string.
theatre.
the "what if/would you rather" game.
creativity.
ballet.
destructive jeans.

the excitement that an online purchase brings when it arrives.

bubbles.
interstates.
hip bones.
abbreviations.
dragonflies.

chex mix' puppy chow.

pelicans.
the human touch.
[just affection in general]
the sound of guitar sliding.
pictures that capture "the moment".
extra crunchy peanut butter.
sandals.
sundresses.
eye makeup.
ralph lauren down pillows.
MAC's turquatic.
juicy couture's viva la juicy.
bold lipstick.
driving by myself with the windows down w/ music blaring.
reading in the tub.
interlocked fingers.
fashion.

finding little notes left by the people I love.

driving a four-wheeler wide open in a field.

burying my feet in the sand.
muscular backs [on men].
chocolate milk.

the feeling of accomplishment after working out.

making a good grade on a test.

flannel pajamas.
bare feet.
wallowing in bed.
old school nintendo.
big cities.
when your nose turns pink in the winter.
the sound, feel, smell of the ocean.
mudsliding in the rain.
white water rafting.

different cultures.

lifesavers wintogreen mints.
pedicures.
tubing.

porches.

swings.

picnics.

boots.

[of all kinds.]

candles.

sleeping in just panties in the summertime.

VS' sexy little things, lace-trim cheekies for bedtime undies.

nicknames.
swimming.

rolling down a hill.

a freezing cold bedroom with a ton of blankets and squishy pillows on the bed.

laughing 'til your sides hurt.

running.
theme parks.
fast cars.
genuine people.
honesty.

[raw honesty. even when it’s not what you want to hear]
huge, old oak trees.
hammocks.

boo cow.
juke boxes.

the south.

11.24.2010

"...well, the look on the cake...it ain't always the taste..."

recently played:

corrine bailey rae :: are you here
sara bareilles :: breathe again
the weeks :: buttons
the black keys :: next girl

oh. how am i doing? extremely well! i am SO happy. and thankful. because now i know that it wasn't for me and that that are better matches. but the thing is...you don't get to ask. so just don't.


i am also thankful for...

God's grace and healing hand.
my God given family.
my chosen family.
"harry" winston.
second chances.
the good found in bad situations.
being born and raised in the south.
music.

hot, peppermint tea is like christmas in a cup! L-O-V-E! it's officially my second favorite time of the year!! eeekkksss!! i adore when someone knows me/my taste well enough to suggest new music and they're right. dear jenna crew, i adore everything about your holiday catalog, but why must you be so proud of it all?



11.17.2010

"...i can tell there's something..."


currently listening to:


peter bjorn and john :: young folks

smit·ten

[smit-n]

–adjective
1. struck, as with a hard blow.
2. grievously or disastrously stricken or afflicted.
3. very much in love.


i don't know why, but i just really like that ^ word. i am SO ridiculously ecstatic about the next few upcoming weekends!! i agree that a TRUE fan of hp or twilight would attend the midnight showing of the movies, BUT i will say that it's pointless unless you have AT LEAST one avid fan to attend with you. the same goes for movies like SATC...unless you can indulge in sushi and cocktails with your gfs beforehand or afterward...what's the point? i'd rather wait...it's just part of the whole experience...in my opinion anyway. fun, little facts are my fave: red wine is the latest addition to the list of aphrodisiacs. this has absolutely no relevance to my life at the moment, but one day it'll be nice to know. i understand retail world putting out christmas decor the moment halloween is over, but it drives me crazy to see people already decorating their homes for christmas when thanksgiving hasn’t even taken place yet. it’s just another example of how fast paced our society is, and I am not a fan. no one ever takes time to just enjoy anything. i'm so embarrassed for people who put TMI about their personal lives in their statuses. if they only knew.... which...i guess people could say the same thing about blogs, but whatevs...it's different haha :) oh and as far as statuses go...i am ABSOLUTELY nauseated about everyone's thoughts/opinions on cam newton. he's a beastttttt. end of discussion. kthanks. i adore SEC football, but i have never understood why people can't just be a fan of their team(s), and just cheer for them instead of feeling the need to bash others also. dumbbbbbb.

11.08.2010

"...just do it for yourself..."

currently listening to:

drake (featuring t.i. & swizz beatz) :: fancy

self-sufficiency is insanely sexy. 7 am run and a cup of hot, english breakfast tea afterward...gloriousssssss!! i hate that all of my people are long distance...luckily i have absolutely NO problem with road trips. love's gas stations are my fave. driving over the tennessee river on 65N is magnificent at sunset. i believe in i can't believe it's not butter spray. i l-o-v-e being from the south, and how "roll tide" and "war eagle" are standard salutations here. i was recently asked by one of my guy friends what some of my turnoffs were when it comes to guys' apparel. a few of MY personal dislikes are:

jerseys.
[you can rep your team in a tee just the same.]
tank tops.
[it DOES NOT matter how ripped you are. under no circumstance am i fan.]
jewelry.
[with the exception of watches and wedding bands.]
ed hardy.
[in ANY form.]
clarks' wallabees.
[those were exciting in 7th grade.]
ANYTHING redneck-esque.
[if you have to think about this it probably qualifies. MINUS cowboy boots. if it's the right boot...on the right person...it can be quite nice.]


hey pretty. i can't wait for you to get here to me:







11.03.2010

"...i won't regret 'cause you can grow flowers from where dirt used to be..."


my life's quote:


"life is too short to wake up in the morning with regrets,

so love the people who treat you right,
forget about the ones who don't,
and believe that everything happens for a reason.
if you get a chance, take it.
if it changes your life, let it."

11.02.2010

"...life's a beach...

i’m just playin’ in the sand..."

currently listening to:
lil wayne :: right above it

weezy just ALWAYS does it for me! everytime. i'm so in love with life's unexpected surprises. it's SO true that when one door closes another one opens. the good that came out of the bad situation was revealed to me this weekend. i had THE BEST halloween/weekend in new orleans. the ONLY thing that could've made it better would've been if we could've gone to the saints game. i'm officially in love with that city. i could never live there, but i adored my visit. if i had still been in a relay i know that i wouldn't have gone and i would've TRULY missed out...on an amazing trip with amazing people. i really should be very thankful for being broken up with. being out of the situation now i can see where it wasn't truly for me. it's just always harder to see when you're IN it. that's life though...it just makes the idea of the end result that much more exciting. i deserve someone that KNOWS what they have because i know my self-worth. that's not a cocky statement, but it's true. i know what i have to offer someone.

why my mother is A-M-A-Z-I-N-G:

I want the happiness of my children more than anything. I would like you to finish your B.S., marry the man of your dreams, and have your three-four beautiful children. I still believe in happily ever after. Life is never seamless - without problems - BUT you can live it with someone you love madly who loves you just as madly. I want you to achieve all your dreams - I really do - I just hope they don't take you too far away from me. I love you unconditionally and forever.

mama


i want this one day:



10.24.2010

"...it's what you do and say that makes you who you are..."

currently listening to:

natasha bedingfield :: strip me



the perfect way to start my week off (even though i think of sunday as the last day of the week): blueberry pancakes, new postsecrets, & church. it really is amazing to me how God delivers a message that is perfect for you at that moment in your life, and it's something that you really needed to hear. a couple of things that really spoke to me today: "just because everything looks great in your life doesn't mean that you're in the will of God." "we serve a Lord of second chances."
i always try my very best to find the good in any bad situation. i've really struggled lately trying to find the good and i still can't seem to see what that is, but i know that one day it will be revealed to me. i love how true such a simple phrase like, "it'll be okay." can be. it is though. it ALWAYS is or will be. in the moment it's just hard to believe it. what doesn't kill you makes you stronger, and my new thing is putting any frustration into working out and running and pushing myself to the limit. it's so freeing. i cannot believe that i'm actually going to be something attractive this year for halloween. i am officially all about the spray tan...now that i've figured out how to keep my hands from looking like i've been playing in mud. so what if it's jersey shore-esque. at least i won't look like a dried up prune later in life. i prefer my oatmeal to be pourage-style vs thick. i seriously DO NOT understand people that don't smile. it's SO terribly unattractive and just lame.

makes me happy:

yoplail's light lemon meringue yogurt.

the office.

flannel pajamas.
i really want these:
[i'm not delusional enough to think that i could make flannel look sexy like that...haha]





10.11.2010

"...this is how we live, every single night..."

currently listening to:
far east movement :: like a g6

the one and ONLY perk to a breakup: absolutely NO appetite. :)

things that have made me happy lately:

running.
[at sunset when it's breezy]
lil wayne.
[blaring through my headphones]
my friends.
[they never cease to amaze me with how wonderful they are]
fall weather.
[and the clothes that go along with this season]

hello lovers...
i'm lusting over you all...













10.10.2010

"...beat goes on..."

currently listening to:
m.i.a :: come around

this is so true and comforting:

"When God takes something from your grasp, He's not punishing you but merely opening your hands to receive something better."

i'm tired of letting my guard down enough to give it my all to end up being hurt
but...
i know it's part of the process.
and i really believe you have to do that to have no regrets.
i'd rather be hurt knowing that i gave it my all than wish i had opened up more and have regrets.


10.09.2010

"...we won't stop until it's over..."

recently played:

temper trap :: sweet disposition
sia :: i'm in here
mumford & sons :: white blank page

"...even if it feels like the shock is coming over and over again...eventually the pain will go away. the shock will wear off, and you start to heal yourself from something that you never saw coming..."

sometimes God takes good things away. it's always been hard for me to understood why, but i know that He does it for a reason. it's all a part of His plan, and that's something that is bigger than me...bigger than my comprehension. the saying, "if it's meant to be it will be. if it's not...it won't." is so cliché, but i've always believed in it and still do. i try my very best to live my life with no regrets, and to not hold back. i can honestly say that i'm very pleased with this approach that i take. it's really the only way to live life (i think anyway).
and i still appreciate honesty...
raw honesty...
even when it hurts.
i forgot how good it feels to just release my thoughts and feelings on here. :)

8.21.2010

"...you and i will be young forever..."

recently played:

katy perry :: teenage dream
phoenix :: countdown
florence + the machine :: cosmic love

i hope that someday someone will think this [ <- click on] about me.

i am also hopeful of this:

7.27.2010

"...and then a kiss...maybe another...and another one..."

currently listening to:
imogen heap :: between sheets

it's funny...because i consider myself to be an optimistic person, but lately i've been looking at things from a glass half-empty perspective. it's hard sometimes to be hopeful. i keep waiting for the bottom to drop out. you know...when things are just too good to be true. makes you wonder how long it will last. i'm happy. really happy. a lot of areas in my life are changing right now, and it's exciting and scary all at the same time.
God's timing makes me smirk. He's been testing my patience in certain areas of my life. one area in particular was tested during wedding palooza 2010. my mother constantly told me to continue to be patient...that God was taking His time picking the perfect one for me. (she is so good to me.) it was never about the marriages, but seeing that love constantly reminded me that i didn't have that in my life.
i've always told myself that the things that are truly worth having and experiencing in life require you to dive in head first not knowing what will happen next. the unknown is the part that's so incredibly exciting and so scary. but that's the thing...you'll never know if you hold back.
i don't know what's going to happen, but i will say that i'm the happiest that i've been in a long time.
i'm just going to enjoy everything and live in the moment.




6.30.2010

"...oh you're such a pretty thing..."

i know my opinion is considered biased...
but seriously...
my besties are g-o-r-g-e-o-u-s!!
no, really...










6.26.2010

"...i hate snobbery...

i hate anyone, who if i was serving chips wouldn't talk to me..."

recently played ::

^^ kate nash :: i hate seagulls
lil wayne featuring nicki minaj:: knockout
sia :: my love

band of horses :: life on earth
florence + the machine :: dog days are over
muse :: neutron star collision (love is forever)
joshua radin :: i'd rather be with you
the black keys :: chop and change
the bravery :: ours
cee lo green :: what part of forever

for someone who hates snobbery...
it was recently brought to my attention how many things i'm a snob about....
i'm pretty sure that there are a couple more that i can't think of at the moment...

  • proper use of grammar
    [i won't get started on this, but it's like nails down a chalkboard to hear it and now because of social networking the magnitude of people who don't know the proper use of their own language is lit-er-a-lly visible.]
  • steak
    [i like my filet rare-medium rare and will send it back if it's cooked any longer than this.]
  • soap
    [i prefer liquid soap to wash my hands and bar soap in the shower. boll weevil soap company is the only bar soap i'll use to bathe with. if i'm going on an overnight trip i make sure to pack some with me. :)]
  • cleaning supplies
    [there are certain brands and products i prefer to clean with. examples of these products: mr. clean magic eraser extra power, mr. clean magic eraser mop, windex, clorox (fresh linen scent), viva paper towels...]

i like what i like.
i can't help it.

6.19.2010

"...i've finally decided..."

recently played:

free :: all right now
timbaland featuring onerepublic :: marching on
[^ makes me insanely hype]
jay-z :: 99 problems
elton john :: goodbye yellow brick road
jamie cullum :: love aint gonna let you down
david gray :: sail away
eric hutchinson :: break down
mat kearney :: where we gonna go from here
joshua radin :: brand new day
james morrison :: undiscovered

i was recently informed that it had been a while since i'd last updated my blog, and that i needed to do so. i guess i just haven't really felt like there has been anything going on worth unloading. good or bad. i feel like my life has been pretty repetitious lately...
one thing that's become a recent issue is venice, the place where i have worked in tuscaloosa for over 2 1/2 years, is shutting down. i was going to have to quit anyway once i found a new job in birmingham at the end of the summer, but this isn't how i wanted things to end. :( i wanted to soak up my remaining days in tuscaloosa spending as much time as possible with my friends there. i didn't want to spend the rest of my time (as far as my lease is concerned) in dothan. but. it's hard to go a month and a half without having a job when you're used to it. so instead i will be spending the remainder of the summer soaking up the rays in southeast alabama.
jamie cullum's new album, the pursuit...amazing. be about that. oh. and people these days NEVER cease to stun me and leave me a-b-s-o-l-u-t-e-l-y speechless. i enjoy meeting new people and finding out what makes them tick SO much. it's so intriguing. i think everyone looks so much better with a little kiss from the sun. life is prettier in color. perfect summertime mix: now and then soundtrack. one of my favorite things to do in the summertime is to read. i love reading anytime, but i usually read the most during the summer for some reason. my fave = spending an evening curled up on the couch with H and a blanket reading a good book with a glass of red wine. mom and i were in the walmart check out line the other day, and i was looking at the magazines and saw that people had one featuring the stars of twilight. edward was on the front so i asked mom if i could add it to the buggy. her reply, "yes, as long as you let me look at it before you leave." :) love. i know...i get made fun of for being a harry potter & twilight fan but whatevs. i love them. they make me happy.

5.12.2010

"...in your ocean, i'm ankle deep..."

recently played:
needtobreathe :: something beautiful <-- l.o.v.e
phoenix :: lisztomania
muse :: feeling good
katharine mcphee featuring jason reeves :: terrified
paramore :: the only exception

a fine frenzy :: blow away



why is it that the people you're not interested in are always the ones that don't play games, they get straight to the point, and are super sweet? i want a frozen hot chocolate from serendipity, please. i'm so disgusted by how america is SO over-medicated. i am ridiculously ecstatic to be digging my toes into the sand in less than a week. after recently watching the bucket list for the first time i've decided i need to scratch of some more items off of my list...those items being bungee jumping and parasailing...and POSSIBLY cedar point.

5.03.2010

"...as simple as a kettle..."

currently listening to:
nick drake :: one of these things first

some of my favorite ways to end a long day:

make friends with the treadmill for an hour.
take a hot shower while listening to my bf, pandora
[station: glorious.]
put lotion & then socks on my feet.
curl up in bed with a good book.

yes, it probably sounds pathetic but i LOVE it. and it makes me so happy. it doesn't take much though. i've realized over the past few months that weddings reveal who your true friends are/the selfish ones are. whatevs. i'm craving pancakes topped with fresh fruit. none of this ihop pancakes w fruit + fruit syrup mess. just plain, made from scratch pancakes + fresh strawberries or blueberries or bananas + syrup + buttuh w a mimosa please.

4.27.2010

"...please come soon..."

currently listening to:
maria taylor :: leap year

hey sexy. i'll take one of you please...
i cannot wait for ironman 2. robert downey jr. is SUCH a blessing. it drives me nuts when people call nashville and huntsville nashvegas/huntsvegas. i hope my hubs enjoys baths because i am obsessed with them and i think it's insanely romantic. he doesn't necessarily have to like them in general just enough to take them with me. :) norah jones + red wine + bubble bath + my man + me = perfection.
i was perfectly fine until i was catching up on brothers & sisters today. snow patrol's "open your eyes" was playing at the end. the combination of that song and the events playing on the episode triggered it. the line: "...i won't waste a minute without you..." made me start playing scenarios in my head that i want to experience some day. with someone that i deeply love. they aren't even big things...
cooking together.
taking a blanket and harry to the park on a pretty day.
going for a walk while holdings hands.
grocery shopping together.
it's those little things that i desire...
i just want to be pursued. and. i want to love someone and be loved in return. i struggle sometimes with remembering that it's about His timing...not mine. i also struggle with patience. i have an abundance of it in my life, but this is the one area where i struggle with it. i TRULY am okay most of the time. sometimes i just have my moments. today i just happened to have one...
thank the good Lord for being so incredibly blessed with amazing friends who are always there for me and know the perfect things to say.

4.22.2010

"...just going to wait it out..."

currently listening to:
imogen heap :: wait it out

a few recent memos i've made...

it's true. i'm officially a cougar in this town. july can't get here soon enough. flirtation as a means of hoping to increase a tip is obnoxious and unnecessary. i find it hysterical when you grab a guy's arm and you can immediately feel the flex. i guess it's the same as a girl sucking in the moment she realizes that someone is getting near her stomach? i don't understand people who don't mean what they say. what's the point? maybe you just have a loose tongue...and...you like to hear yourself talk? or it's because you're forgetful...in the fact that...you forgot that you already had prior engagements. regardless of the reason...leave me out of it. i hate sketchiness.
it's probably trashy, but i don't care if you can see my bra through my shirts. i love love love black bras/underwear. and lace is my absolute fave. lace is SO fem. LOVE. as silly as it may sound...i just HAVE to end up with a tall man...i adore my heels WAY too much.
i'm excited that this will be here next week:




4.03.2010

"...you only think about yourself..."

currently listening to:
incubus :: mexico


i'd forgotten how great they are. ^
uh-may-zing makeout sesh. check. best one in a LONG time. i'm still sportin' the koolaid 'stache 9 hours later. mmmm. i love the unexpected.
it's so crazy to me how someone can be such a big part of your life for a period of time and then one day they aren't anymore.
i'm not one of those that likes the seasonal, window stick on decorations, but i thoroughly enjoy getting seasonal dish towels & door mats. or just fun little prints. especially if they come from anthropologie. :)
for instance...
yes, they are overpriced but i LOVE them and don't care.

i LOVE dragonflies.
and
owls.
[yes, kp i secretly wish that i had been a chi-o. ha]


i prefer plain white, viva paper towels UNLESS they are a really cute print (which they rarely are). my three favorite band-aids (or plasters as they are referred to in the uk ;) are 1) curious george 2) hello kitty 3) neon colored (only for the bigger boo boos).
i feel so bad A. i am once again part of the keyless entry club!! i've been without it for 4 years. this should be an indicator of how sad my little life is. i'm super pumped about my keyless entry working again. ha
excuses get on my ever-loving nerves. ESPECIALLY lame ones. [see above lyrics] if i ever give you one please slap me.
song that makes me insanely hype: santigold :: creator
men in linen pants...gloriousssssssssss. men in wife beaters...mmm...not so much.
example of why i am the "special" child that i am [email between my mother and me]:

mck:

ohh, and tell the easter bunny that instead of candy i sure would love to get new moon from him. :)

the mama:
Humm...you're saying you're trading candy for eye candy?? Smart choice, I'd say.
I love you to the MOON and back !!

3.19.2010

live in the moment.

song that just did it for me today:
sia :: breathe me

i was driving home after date night with b, and i had one of those moments. the one where you remember how amazing music is. one of those moments/feelings that you can't express to anyone else unless they too have experienced it. it's one of those moments where you don't really know how to describe the way you're feeling. it's just good. it's when you're listening to a really good song...in the car...alone...windows rolled down...left arm out the window...right hand on wheel. it's indescribable really. music is so powerful. i'm obsessed with it. ALL of it. tonight was sia's "breathe me" that did it for me. it's one of my favorites. i just never have gotten tired of it. it gives me that feeling everytime.
i can't believe that my best is married. i mean i can. cause...i was there. but. it's so weird. it's so exciting and sad at the same time. i kind of feel like we're on two different levels now sort of? she's skipped two chapters ahead of me. she always was impatient with the unknown. :) i'm still in the college slash single part of my story. she's in the post-grad slash married part. weird. maybe that's why i was asked if i felt "left behind" last weekend. i mean no...i've never thought about it like that really. i am 10 months + younger than the others. that gives me a little cushion, right? i guess i just didn't think it was SO bad to be single at the ripe age of twenty-three years old. maybe i'm further behind than i thought. apparently...if i don't "get on board soon" i'm going to have an account set up for me on eharmony. maybe this is another sign of why i should move north for a little while. ha yes, their lives are faster paced. everywhere EXCEPT in terms of relationships. oh em gee. i sound so bitter. i'm really not. really. okay...so...i guess i am, but only about those comments. needed to vent. moving alonggggg...
michael bublé...in concert...a-m-a-z-i-n-g. i've never experienced a concert like that. he somehow turned an arena into an intimate setting. PERFECT date concert. SO romantic. his song, "haven't met you yet" is my theme song. :) i'm picky. i can't help it. and. a little cynical. i'm still working on that...
i should be at walmart right now buying new moon. i'm in love with 7 up diet cherry. i need to substitute diet bevs with water. i'll start on that after i finish this one. i'm also in love with robert pattinson. i just spent the past 1.5 hours lusting. he's beautiful. unwashed hair and all. mom thinks he's "enchanting". presh. i just love over-sized watches. why do i make my late night bubble baths so unbearably hot? i feel so hardcore when i use a power drill. who needs a boy's help? after watching my bf and his co-star, emilie de ravin, pin each other up against walls and roll around in sheets i'm in need of an amazing makeout sesh. kthanks.

3.06.2010

"...what i have is right here..."

current repeats:

rolling stones :: wild horses
[will always be one of my faves]
the xx :: islands
the xx :: shelter
ratatat :: montanita
chris garneau :: relief


mixed CDs are the best gift ever. no, seriously. best. ESPECIALLY if you have great taste.
oh. and mail. getting mail makes me so incredibly happy.
old school calligraphy grosses me out. so do plain, cream wedding invites with nothing but script words printed on them. yawn.
PDA doesn't necessarily just entail holding hands. it also includes social networking. it's SOO gross!!
example:
boy's status: worn out from the gym.
girl's comment on status: i know what else wears you out. ;)
NO ONE WANTS TO KNOW ABOUT YOUR BUSINESS. kthanks.
i get so frustrated by cookie cutter molded people. it's so boring. and it's so abundant in a college town. they're all pretty much carbon copies of one another. whatevs. i love funky, freestyle dressed people. fashion really is a fun way of expressing yourself. it's always been fun to me. i'm very much an advocate of if you like it you like it...who cares what anyone else thinks. EXPRESSSSS ya self. i don't care who makes it or whether it's this season's "it" item or not...if i like it i like it. the rules have been broken, and i LOVE it. give it uppppp. suede shoes and white are year round. black & brown DO go together. the way i feel about fashion is the same way i feel about interior design. i ADORE them both. my fave style in the two: vintage or vintage inspired. everything.
the phrase "let's keep in touch" is on the same page as the pageant smile + saying: hey! how are you?! while walking away w/o waiting on a response....SUPER lame and fake.
i still adore henry mancini's "moon river". it's such a classic.
i can't believe my best is getting married this weekend. it hasn't hit me yet. and. it probably won't hit me until the very moment of. i just can't fully process... we are growing up and it freaks me out more and more with each passing day!!!
i have a crush that i can't quit....
i want to be lying on a hammock listening to waves and reading a good book.

2.15.2010

"...swing open up your chest and let it in..."

recently played:
miley cyrus :: when i look at you
tim hanauer :: dream a better way
ingrid michaelson :: everybody
ingrid michaelson :: little romance

so i survived it...
valentine's day.
and up until VERY recently (concerning this time of year) i had been my usual anti-valentine's/love sucks self. but. i was really fine with it this year. in fact i had a really good valentine's day. yes, it was another year that i didn't have a "significant other". but. it's okay. that void has been filled by my significant otherS, my people - my family. i'm constantly reminded of how blessed i am by having them in my life. while some people have already been blessed with their significant other they can't say that they have TRUE, REAL friendships.
"the most important thing in life is your family. there are days you love them and others you don't. but in the end they are the people you always come home to. sometimes it's the family you're born into and sometimes it's the one you make for yourself." -- SATC
God has given me such a peace about this subject. i know that He has specific plans for my life and my future. He knows my heart and what is best for me....so in the mean time i'm not going to look for happiness in another person. that is just setting yourself up for a life full of letdowns and disappointments. instead i'm going to let God be the joy in my life. i know that maybe next week or tomorrow even i will have a moment of frustration and wonder when my turn is, but for now i'm okay. oh. and i've officially decided to go to all of my friends' weddings this year solo. it's so much easier that way. it takes away the stress of finding someone you want to take, if that person you want to take can even go, and if they can go making sure that they're included and having a good time.
new obsession :: the show, weeds. which is hyster considering i have never touched a drug in my life, yet i LOVE a show that is completely based on them.

there are SO many good movies coming out that i am ecstatic about this spring!

alice in wonderland.
3.5.2010


remember me.
3.12.2010
[lust of my life, rob pattinson. need there be another reason to see it?]


the last song.
3.31.2010


the back-up plan
4.23.2010


and BEST OF ALLLLLL...
this CANNOT possibly get here soon enough!!

SATC 2.
5.28.2010
[my city. my song. my show. ]



1.24.2010

"...somehow everything's gonna fall right into place..."

currently listening to:
paramore :: hallelujah (acoustic)

[thanks t. ^ you've always had the best taste. ;) ]

breathe in.
and.
releaseeeeeee.......

when given bad news most people show some type of emotion...sadness, hurt, anger, etc. me? nothing. i am numb. the only time that i have felt emotion about this situation is when people judge me for not showing any. and then...i feel anger. who are you to tell me how i SHOULD feel? who are you to tell me how i SHOULD respond? it's true...you really can't judge someone until you've walked a mile in their shoes. i've always believed in this statement, but my current situation has TRULY shown me exactly what that means. how come some of the most sensitive people can be so insensitive sometimes? everyone deals with things differently. i'm such an open person, but i've never been more closed off. it's impossible to know how i feel, and understand where i'm coming from unless you REALLY know me or understand everything. and even people who i THOUGHT knew me don't get it so it's easier for me just to close myself off. i'd rather not discuss it. i'm exhausted from trying to explain myself. i'm also enraged at the hypocrisy. it's just sick. don't act like you care just to win sympathy or whatever it is that you're trying to achieve. that's all you've EVER been... words. words. words. and i'm so tired of people using networking sites to post (what should be) PRIVATE things. just stop. seriously.
once again, i am so grateful to those who (even if they don't completely understand) are just there for me. no questions asked. i love you. forever.

1.20.2010

"...a lot of y'all still soundin' like last year..."

current repeats:
drake (featuring trey songz & 'lil wayne) :: successful
'lil wayne :: on fire

weezy f. baby + hot, english breakfast tea [in my orange, bff mug] is the best way to start my day. you're SO last year. i no longer rearrange my iCal for you or any other boy for that matter. i left that cait back in 2oo9.
it's funny how you can go from being sappy to disgusted in no time.
i am so absolutely grossed out by:
  • games.
    [say what you mean and mean what you say. not a hard concept to follow.]
  • disrespect.
    [did your mother never teach you that some things shouldn't be said when a female is present? save your "boy talk" when it's JUST the boys. kthanks.]

  • whores.
    [i'm sorry that you're "frustrated", but that isn't my problem. pretty sure that you can handle that one on your own. literally.]

    [i am truly REPULSED to the core that some people actually believe that saying i love you should result in sex. WRONG. good try though.]

1.09.2010

"...you and me forever, baby..."

currently listening to:
dave matthews band :: baby blue

today has been one of THOSE days...
i haven't had one in a while...
sooo i'm just going to get it all out...
because
tomorrow is a new, non-sappy day.

i forgot how much i don't like sleeping alone. see...this is why i really shouldn't get involved in holiday flings. no matter your initial intentions, or the fact that you both know that it will end when it's time to go separate ways...it's always a reminder of how it's nice just to have someone. which is the exact reason why i shouldn't.
it's just easy to get sucked into them....
someone to snuggle with when it's 20° outside.
someone to kiss until you're literally exhausted.
someone to hang out with when you've had enough fam time.
someone to play [pretend] bf/gf with. [that game has been on the shelf collecting dust]
it was fun while it lasted, but now it's time to head back to reality...where the only man in my life chews raw hides.
the airport is always sort of depressing to me. especially around the holidays [the worst time of year for a single person -- at least it is for me]. i had to witness not only couples hand-in-hand, but traveling together. the worst. that's the one thing i long for the most. someone to travel and share that experience with. or. i hope that one day if i am having to travel alone [for whatever reason] that i get to land to someone that i adore [and that also adores me] waiting for me @ the arrivals gate with an i don't want to be away from you for another second hug & flowers.
i worry that my desire of wanting someone special in my life will overshadow my judgment in us truly being a good match.
and this is why:

i'm afraid that i'm not going to give anyone a chance because i finally let myself become vulnerable again and it didn't work out. what if i write any possibilities off before i give them a chance because of future living destinations. i want to move away for a little while. some people don't understand this. they don't see why i can't just travel but stay here. it's just something i think i need to experience. i don't know why really. i can't really explain it to myself. it's just this deep desire i have. mom thinks that if i were to find someone before the time came to move away that i might change my mind about relocating. but. would that then make me resentful?
i absolutely LOVE getting to know new people and finding out what makes people tick...but...it's the actual dating process that i LOATHE. it's because @ a certain point most people (men & women) don't date to pass the time. so you both know that in a way you're just going through this mental checklist every time you're together trying to see how compatible the two of you really are. and sometimes you both realize early that the two of you would never work and everyone gets out just fine. but sometimes you have to prolong the process and someone gets hurt. can i just skip over all of the what ifs to oh em gee we're the perfect fit, and i want to share the rest of my life with you? kthanks.
i'm excited about what this year has in store for me, but i'm also terrified. i have some really big decisions to make. grown up decisions. i've been avoiding them for a while now. i don't know what i'm going to do, and choosing what is most comfortable sounds best. but i know that what is most comfortable is not what will make me the happiest in the end. getting out of my iridescent (with mainly shades of chartreuse) bubble is what i need to do.
my lease in tuscaloosa runs out in august. where do i move next?
where do i want to go for grad school? should i move to birmingham and do the tuscaloosa commute for grad school? should i move far away and choose the online grad school option? do i move to the question mark destination, take a semester off and work. do i immediately jump into the whole grad school thing? it's so overwhelming. i have no one & nothing tying me down...which is great...kind of...but...it makes it harder because it makes the options unlimited. i never have been good with several options. or really anymore than 1 option. i wish that it was easier for me to just pack & go and not weigh the costs/benefits. the thought of not being near my people hurts my heart. i already live extremely too far away from 1. being away from all of them terrifies me. it's just so much easier to decide and to do something insane when you have a wing-man.
i'm ridiculous and have watched entirely too many romantic movies. whatever. i just have to make it to anti-valentine's day and singles awareness season is over! 1 month & 4 days. no biggie.