"...i won't let you close enough to hurt me..."

currently listening to:

adele :: 21
[^ released today. amaze.]

"you should be kissed, and often. and by someone who knows how."
-- rhett butler [gone with the wind]

i am an affectionate person. always have been. always will be. not receiving that is a deal-breaker.
i have decided that i am just not cut out for dating. end of story.
i am so apathetic to it all...
that's why i'm just "going along" with whoever/whatever comes my way...
don't get too invested and you won't get hurt.
in the words of one of my best guy friends,
"just put on a sexy dress and let them take you out. just enjoy it and have fun!"
i want to be pursued.
hard core.
the questioning and wondering is exhausting....
and personally...
i don't think that you should be questioning OR wondering about anything....
it should just be obvious.
this commersh makes me happy:

i don't deal well with sketchiness. in ANY form.
i wish that men were similar to pre-approved credit cards. that you could just bypass the application (interview/dating) process of finding out if you're approved (compatible with that person). find out if you are and THEN get to know them. i know...it's backwards and ridiculous, but it would make things much easier.
this little boy can do no wrong in my eyes:
little snuggle bug...